Simply put.... I'm just Simply Me ....
I am a free spirited, adventurous, glory abiding girl, who is passionately in love with Jesus! I've been here, there and everywhere. Experienced the good, the bad and the ugly. I've made some major mistakes in my life, but have had the privilege to walk in the redeeming power of God's unconditional love, mercy and grace!
I can go from long flowing gown to jeans and my harley all in the same day carrying the same message of love! (Well not actually, because I don't even own a long, flowing gown.... but if I did, I could!)
I'm a straight talkin, glory shootin, devil destroying, gypsy spirited girl who loves the simple things in life and making friends around the world! Without God I am nothing! With God I have all I will ever need!
I don't claim to know it all, but one thing I do know, God will use every day peeps and those less likely to "look the part". At the end of the day He is just looking for an available vessel! The highest 'call' one is given is to share with the world the redeeming power of the cross and the unconditional love of almighty Papa God!
I have accepted that call and daily march forward to proclaim of His goodness and to share His message:
My identity as a child was lost in a distorted self-image. As far back as I can remember, I lacked self-esteem, had no self-respect and felt unloved. My abuse at home pushed me further into feeling like I didn't fit in anywhere.
My road began where I found “family” on the streets and “love” brought teen pregnancy.
I was 15, feeling abandoned and rejected trying to make it with my newborn in the Foster System. One year later I was staring life in the face as an emancipated minor trying to survive in a grown up world. The following year I placed my daughter for adoption.
Unable to cope with what I conceived to be the “most horrible decision of my life”, I turned to drugs to kill the pain. Not long after, I married. Poor choices, alcohol, drugs, and physical abuse became my lifestyle. Within three months of being married, I was pregnant again. My husband wanted no part of responsibility, or, of raising a child. He demanded our child’s life be terminated. Against his wishes, I chose life.
The drug and domestic abuse intensified after our daughter was born; and a year later, I again found myself pregnant. This time when my husband demanded abortion, I agreed.
In four years time I had placed a child for adoption, parented a child not wanted by her father and had an abortion. I couldn’t imagine things any worse. However, the day I chose to terminate my child’s life, something broke inside of me and I knew my life would never be the same.
I left my husband and continued to struggle and make unhealthy choices. It wasn't long before I found myself again depending on drugs. My cocaine addiction had become so profound, that I would leave my 3 year-old-daughter for four or five days at a time with a friend so I could indulge myself. The reality that my addiction had taken precedence over my life was the day I heard my daughter call someone else “mommy”.
It was exactly those words spoken by my three year-old that dropped me to my knees. In August 1988, at the age of 22, I received Jesus as my personal Savior and Lord of my life. Having exhausted all things of the WORLD, I had now found something far greater!
In 1993 I remarried. Although my abortion had left me infertile, God’s blessing of restoration allowed us to conceive my two sons. The young child that was to have been taken from this world through abortion, her very existence, led to my salvation. I reunited with my daughter that I placed for adoption in January 2000. My son Matthew, whose life was terminated before birth, I will one day meet in heaven.